Alex Hollyood has admitted she 'lost herself' in her 19-year marriage to ex-husband Paul Hollywood .
The chef married the Great British Bake Off star in 1998 and they had one child together, a son Josh, who's now 17.
Her marriage to the 53-year-old star made headlines when they announced they were divorcing in 2017.
And just days later, reports emerged that he'd been wining and dining a much-younger woman, Summer Monteys-Fullam, 24, a barmaid at his local pub.
Paul is still dating Summer and recently piled on the PDA with her as they celebrated her birthday on holiday.
Now, Alex has spoken about what being married to Paul did to her.
She told The Sunday Telegraph 's Stella magazine: "When you get married and have children, it's easy to lose yourself. I'm not complaining because I was happy, but then someone else rips everything up and it wakes you up to who you are and what you have become and what sacrifices you've made."
Alex and Paul first split in 2013, when Paul had an affair with 34-year-old Marcela Valladolid after going to America to front a US version of Bake Off.
He later said publicly that it had been the "biggest mistake" of his life, and Alex took him back.
Talking about her decision, she said: "I stand by that decision. I believed in my marriage, I wanted to make it work."
And Alex says when she became concerned about Paul's relationship with Summer, she knew it was over.
She added: "It was over. I didn't have to make a decision, that was it. The only decisions for me then were about me son, about my future. I mean, that is a lot. Divorce is tough, very tough. You don't expect it, you are in shock, and all of a sudden you are on your own."
Alex added that she doesn't want to come across as "sad".
She said: "I'm not going to lie and say it hasn't been difficult, but I'm not broken. Divorce hurts. I was married for 20 years. But you keep going."
Alex admitted she's been through some "dark times" but that she "lives with it" and that it's made her find out who she is now and who and where she wants to be.
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